Yesterday was six months for us. Yes. It's only been six months, and I'm living with this kid. I know, no one approves of my decision to leave Union and move in with him, and they say it's just nuts that I would do something like this -- "SUZIE? Really? She'd never do that! She's such a good girl!" -- but for heaven's sake, it's what I wanted to do, and I am happy with the choices I made. My life couldn't be better. People think they know what I'm all about, but I'm like the complete opposite of most people's perceptions. I appreciate my true friends who come and talk to me about what is happening in my life, instead of talking around school about what I'm doing with my life and how I'm screwing myself over, when they probably haven't talked to me since May, or perhaps NEVER in my life. I'm not an angel; I make mistakes; I'm not some innocent little dandelion that's never experienced life. But I AM smart enough to get a grown-up job at a reputable company; I'm responsible enough to move out from under the shelter of an Adventist institution and support myself (for the most part), keeping food on the table and keeping my spiritual life where it needs to be. I am going back to school next semester, and what will I have to show for this semester? Oh, that's right. Real-world experience, a resume, and a place of my own.
These past six months with Dylan have been the best of my life. He's not ruining me -- he's making me better. He's helped me stand up for myself; he's taught me that it's okay to do what I want to do, and to hell with the haters. Some people don't really like him, but I don't care. I do.
I love the people I got to know at Union and elsewhere in the world -- but seriously, come on, guys. It's old news by now. And I don't think you're talking about me because you're "worried" about my future. If you were, you'd have come and talked to me about it. Thank you to those of you that did. To the rest, shut up about it already.
I'm glad you're happy and doing what you want to do. =) before long there will be some new gossip and the people that don't really care about your future will move on with their pathetic little lives.
ReplyDeleteyou talk about how independent you've become in your blog alot...not that it's any of my business (its not, but you're the one with the blog), but are you doing this just to prove a point, just to show how grown up you are?
ReplyDeleteI've seen a few friends do this; go against every social indoctrination (at least the major ones) their overbearing parents have in order to break away from adolescence. It usually doesn't end well for them. They tend to rush into things and get hurt. But then again their parents see how much they hurt themselves, despite every precaution they've taken raising their child, and realize it is beyond their control.
Then again I'm just making generalizations. maybe you're different.
I love Dylan and I love you. Someday, I hope to go after what I want without holding back just like you two. I think that people that don't take "risks" (as many people might see) don't live.
ReplyDeleteAs for the question of whether or not Suzie is independent? Trust me...she always has been. And people that don't know that, don't know her very well.
And Suz, just for the record. As long as you make choices that make you happy and don't hurt TONS of people around you [which this obviously didn't] I approve. I love you.
<3 Ells.
Suzie, your being happy and fulfilled and joyful and peaceful is SO much more important than what other people deem as the "right" or the "wrong" thing to do. Anyone can make an assumption from the outside, but you are the one living your life.
ReplyDeleteLike I've said before, everybody and their grandmother will have advice for you. And it's wise to consider what other people say, just for the sake of seeing from different perspectives.
But ultimately, I think we all know in our hearts what is best for us, and sometimes it's not what others are telling us. Keep following your gut and going after what you know will make you whole and balanced. Only you and God really know what that is, and I'm proud of you for recognizing that, no matter what others say.
You're incredible! Keep your head up; I love you! :)
I think You & Dylan are an awesome couple and I think together you'll continue to make the right choices for your future.
ReplyDeleteI enjoy your blog and admire you for blogging. Don't let anyone silence you.
:)